Perhaps, i should just move onwords cant describe what torment i have been going through. Words cant fully depict my torture inside my body. Words cant colour the pain that i deal to myself, the pain nobody would even care about. Words cant fully express what i want to say.But all i have now are words. i realise my mistake now. i realise the truth now. i realise why this is happening. i realise it now, and i believe, it is too late for me to go back to the past and change what i did. If i could, well, things would be different. How different? for the better i hope. school has been great recently, not as in academically great, but socially great. you discover things about people who you thought you knew so well. I did, but i aint gonna say who. you see people as your social backer, your backbone in life, backing you up when you are down. i know of a few people, so i shall name them here. My thanks and gratitude to Pei Yun, my bubbly twinnie, Steph, Stephanie, Melissa, Simin, Danielle, and others who would have helped me in as little ways as possible. back to my realisation. Looking at my past, i realise one thing, and that history does repeat itself. but it is up to us to make it different. I had a deja vu, and i tried to turn it around. Whether i succeeded or not, that is a question that might be left unanswered for times to come. i dont know whether its worth going down that road any longer. and i have a feeling it isnt anymore. perhaps, i should just move on. Justin ranted at 8:24:00 pm on the |