i want to breathe......but i am like a soul with lungs replaced by condescending words that bite into my very heart.So i have a girlfriend. Yea parents, you heard that right, i have a girlfriend. and i love her to bits. see the word love there? not best friends, not just good friends. girlfriend. and yes, i can handle it. dont start the "your studies is more important, you are too young." shit. i know what i think, i know what i must do, what i must not do. i know control. i know you are concerned about me. i told you all many times, told you that i can handle it. you told me otherwise..and i told you, reasonably that i can handle it. but wow, you dont believe your own son? you doubt his capabilities? wonderous i tell ya. totally awesome. the best trust and bond i have ever seen. i am being totally shit jerk now. i dont give a fuck. now my mum is risking her sleep, sitting near the computer, like a person on vigil, strike against me. its unfair to you, but you know why i am doing here. you know i am pissed. and seriously, i am sick of being a nice guy now. look out parents, rebel minghao is here to haunt you. ok, so i have done wrong by shouting at you all. i was pissed before this happened. pissed with my dad. pissed with him, you, whatever for not even letting me use the computer for FIVE MINUTES. just five minutes okay. i told you nicely, and you just had to give me that condescending voice. i have endured your comments nicely, and your "i am back home, and i see you on the com, so i should just slap your face softly just to wake you up" slaps on my face. its frankly very very irritating. and i just read one of my rivals blog. wonderous i tell ya. i talked nicely to him, most likely incured some anger by my stupid comments. i was worried about your depression guy, and yea, i know i used the wrong words my dear boy. go take your parang and kill me for all i care. be angry at this. as if i care now. my friend told me to let you all just stand there and be envious. and i think i should. fuck it. a side you wouldnt see anytime soon. i am fucking pissed, never been so pissed in my life before. this is a public entry, everyone can feel my hurt, be irritated at me being a total jerk. people will tell my girlfriend about this, and i would know she would get hurt too...shit..maybe i shouldnt post this up. she would get hurt... argh...i wish she was here. to calm me down. Justin ranted at 11:46:00 pm on the |