Another new year resolution i suppose

i was looking through my previous poetry, and i discovered how i seem to have lost this writing touch to poetry. Now everything i write is in poetic prose. Not poetry, mind, but poetic prose, which is slightly differents. seems that i could try and discover this part of me again. It was gone when i left opendiary. Maybe i should go back to using opendiary. Its much homely i guess. Other than that, i dunno. Blogger seems okay i guess. Just that i can never write stuff that are too private, as there isnt a way to make my entries private. guess i just have to censor my stuff a tad.


so my updated resolutions for the year:

  • Try and work harder to my academic results. But. Huge But, no compromising the wonderful relationship i am having with my dearest simin now.
  • Love simin more and more. Well, i suppose this is easy to do, as i am falling more deeply for her as every single second pass.
  • Work out things with my parents. Danielle said i was using this foot in the door technique, where i got a bit overboard every single time, until i am able to make it seem normal to be a bit too much. Then my freedom would be more. Maybe i explained it wrongly, but that what i think anyways.
  • Try and revive my poetry. Kinda miss writing them now. Maybe its because i have found happiness, and it tends to dull my senses. My poetry seems best when its written in anger or sadness. Or just plain boredom. Maybe once i start feeling stressed out, which i am now, i might just..just.start again. Hopefully.
  • Bulk up. Increase my weight, my fitness, get a tan, everything. which is gonna be dfficult. very very difficult. But hey, i do get koodos for trying dont i?
  • Learn to be less dependent. Again, not compromising the relationship. Its meant not for love, but in terms of being more self-sufficient. Love is different. One complements the other, in an act of love, and are one, unable to survive without the other. dont misunderstand me please.
  • Try and slowly change my behaviour to be less of a closet sadist. You wouldnt understand what this is, but suffice to say, it would help everything i do, and the relationships i have.
  • And try and improve my colour coordination. sheesh.
Hm..seems that my colour coordination is still quite bad. Schools start tommorow. Maybe i should continue on with my essay. sigh.

Justin ranted at 2:17:00 pm on the
2 January 2005
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