Honestly...

• A new dawn has come 3.1.06:
  
  Sigh, today i feel old. Its supposed to be the start of a new school term now, everybody's rushing to school, feeling happy, sad, excited, but doing something that i wished i was doing. I kinda miss school. Now i have to go start my work at The Store, earning measly money, but nonetheless doing something.
  
  C'est la vie.
  
  
• At times i do doubt 4.1.06:
  
  i feel lonely at times, alone in this world, broken hearted and saddened by the fact of life, the inevitablity of life, and of course, the impossibility of it all. Maybe its just me, but somehow, the distance lends itself ways to drag you apart from society, even though you may be part of it, but the human essence of yourself slowly fades away.
  
  Work sucks ya know?
  
  
• Another kind of green 8.1.06:
  
  I guess life is just like that. There is no greener grass on the other side, nor is your side the greenest. Its just another kind of green, one that is the right shade for you. Its just the right side for you, and its something you have to learn to deal with everything. Considering what has happened the past days, i have to say that my grass aint greener than yours, its just something that has grown to a pale green to signify the feelings that i am feeling now. Like a plain, i guess it changes with the seasons, from white in the winter, to bare in the summer. Its just like life i guess, as time moves on, your experiences changes, and nothing is ever the same again. I wish i could turn back time, where i could learn to appreciate the finer things of life, one that makes my plain, the grass ever more beautiful than other other place in the world. But at least now i learn my mistake, though painful, it has been an awesome ride with heaven into the sunset of life. But i guess the sunset has set, and darkness slowly sets in, letting a single star shine brightly above that dear little tree.
  
  John mayer writes awesome songs, and the blues he plays feels like pure nirvana. Laugh if you want, until you listen to him. You will be blow away, i guarentee, unless of course, you hate him, then there is nothing i can say aye?
  
  

• My work
  
  Been working at The Store for a week now, and suffice to say, its very boring. But sometimes, you do meet interesting, but somewhat flawed people. Like my mum's friend, who has a certain anxiety problem, always feeling very nervous, and speaking in a very fast manner. But somehow, this has affected her better judgement, and making people feel that she is not a very nice person. Somehow, i thought that she was nice at first, but after some time, nay, i thought. She aint that nice after all. But work is afterall work, a monotonous work that is boring and tedious. Imagine folding clothes for 3 hours straight. Imagine standing like a manequin, and waiting for people to suddenly appeared in the empty corridor. Imagine, just imagine, listening to the same chinese new year song for the ten thousandth time every single day. It is tedious, and my pay is as little as ever. But i guess i am working just for the experience, and even though i am slowly getting used to it, its still a boring ride every single day. I get paid just to stand. Its a amazingly lazy job, yet, well. i get paid, and that's all i asked for.

• My life:
  
  Consider this. A six day work week, with a wednesday free. Only a wednesday free. The rest of the days, you have to work 10 hours, until 12 in the morning sometimes. Its kinda makes your life a little boring and small and insignificant. I am eighteen, and i dont want to be closed up in a shop, just waiting for people, when i can be out having fun, albeit spending money, which i do not have. But one good thing is that i will always have my wednesday to look forward to. Especially today, where i went to the Singapore Mariott Hotel to eat a lunch buffet with simin. The food was nice, and the ambience nice. There was a gallery of food dishes that could just make your mouth water, even the desserts seemed to be a single buffef itself. Some of the food, like the seafood platter was heavenly, but some, like roasted chicken meat, was just plain normal, nothing to get excited about. One thing i noticed is that normally, such buffets are western oriented. Then it was a day of just walking around in orchard, which was very nice [we bought a huge banana soft toy, complete with a small banana handphone holder. And two shirts that had little funny writings on them], considering the things that happened before that. Shant dwell into that though. I can only wait, and wait i will. Cause i will always, always wait. :)

Justin ranted at 10:32:00 pm on the
11 January 2006
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