Selfless, cold and composedWhen you are down, the thing that you want to hear the most isnt the happiest words, nor do you want to see the sunrise, and admire any beauty near you. The one thing you want to do is to wallow in self-pity and the depression that slowly drags you into the abyss that you have created for yourself. Loneliness begets the sorrow that chains you to the things that you had loved and cared about. It begins to crawl and eat at your skin, the sounds of the erosion breaking into your neck, your voice starts to shiver, and all you can do is to break down in a single moment of weakness and let it pour. Let everything out, in the gist of the emotional songs, you break at the climax, and slowly you start to begin the road to recovery.As you slowly start to know the truth about yourself, and the sensitivity that you have, you wonder. You might wonder. Should i start to believe that this is who i am? This certain flaw is what i have and accept it, and begin anew? Or do you want to fight it? Never believing it and suffer all the while? I never did wanted to accept the flaws of mine, and i fought to change it, fought to be who i wanted myself to be. Nurture versus the fuckin nature, but you know how strong willed nature is. Like the canopy in the forest, it blocks all light entering, only allowing the smallest plants to grow. Only to be stepped by others over you. Damien rice has wonderful melancholy songs, even though the lyrics seem very randomised. My cave is deep now, and no light is shining through. Dammit dammit dammit. So rehersal is cancelled. Never mind. Damien rice can accompany this sick little man as he slowly drifts into the river that never runs dry. Sleep is very very nice Justin ranted at 7:20:00 pm on the |