EverytimeThere is this part of me that hides the feelings that i consider, erasing them whenever i do not think about you, letting you go and never remembering your existence. But when i do, whenever i see the things that relate to you, there is this deep longing that suddenly burst inside my heart. You wont ever know, nor will i ever say, but in the nights that i lay silent in bed, all i can think about is what will.As the days grow longer, as we drift further, and as we become older, the secret i carry will disappear into the horizon, as i see you run towards the setting sun, into the darkness that will slowly envelope the skies. The stars will glitter and giggle at my foolishness and my stubbornness, and the moon will carry my courage away to the young clouds that drift into the infinite blackness that will slowly fade to nothingness. I must not look at you. I must not remember you. I must not see anything that has you. For it will bring me back to square one and cause me that wall that i have build to protect myself from the pessimistic happenings in my life. I wonder what it would be like if you ever found out. I wonder what it will feel like if you ever knew. I wonder what life can be if you agreed. I wonder how i will be if we were together. But sadly, that is for fools. I will walk on the beach, let the waters wash the sands off the edges of my toes, and trace your name in the sands, only to see them disappear with the foam of the waters. Your name will go with the seas, and into the big ocean, while i call out for it again and again. Justin ranted at 9:12:00 pm on the |