This is the strangestHe listens to The Long Blondes, and one lyrics caught him, "what's eating you is a mystery." and interestingly, all he could think about is how History tends to repeat himself. As the beats and the rhymes starts to fade away, the deja vu sinks in, and all he can ever recall is the repeats of words, of situations, or events that occur every single moment of his life.He doesnt know how to fully approach the situation, always stuck in that same singularity that blows away all his common sense. He becomes one with the silence, his face an impassionate blank. He watches as the people around him walk away, one by one as he cannot stop but be held still by the impossibility of the verisimilitude in his life right now. He needs the kind of advice that tells him what is the exact steps that he has to do. Follow them step by step, and the situation will be resolved. But there is nothing but experience at his side right now, and inadequate as it is to deal with the events unfolding, it is the only thing that will keep him going. It is the strangest thing actually, when you have absolutely nothing to say, yet you are bursting at the seams, thinking of things to say. It is the strangest thing actually, when you dont want to look like you are hiding from it all, yet the obvious truth is you are. It is the strangest thing actually, when you alone in a room, and the walls start to close in on you. It is the strangest thing actually, when slowly your ears go deaf in the middle of the night, and there is nothing you can hear but that. It is the strangest thing when your hands tremble even in the face of your invincible confidence. It is the strangest thing when an old man stares at you, and you know exactly what he is telling you. It is the strangest thing when your heart wavers when you hear the cries of help, yet you know it is just a front. It is the strangest thing when all you can see is the words that are appearing infront of you, yet for all your knowledge, you have no idea what it all means. It is the strangest thing actually when you can feel everything around you, yet when you look deep inside yourself, you feel nothing. And it is by far the strangest thing when event C is the same as Event B, and the same as Event A, even though they are a few years apart. It is by far the strangest thing when you are afraid of the future, yet you are dying to face it. It is by far the strangest thing when you just wished you could just give up, yet you know you can't. Because you will lose everything. Justin ranted at 10:59:00 pm on the |