i had a grand realisationit happened last time. it is happening again. and i realised that if it ever does happen in the similar way that i think will go, then i know what exactly is the problem here.there are times when there is nothing going on, and suddenly everything starts to go smoothly, and the late nights suddenly become morning. Trying hard to make it sound ever so cryptic is hard too, but probably nobody will know what the hell am i talking about. So you see, this is how things are going actually, this is how things will go actually. this is how i work, this is how things become, and this is how things will be. considering that if emotions arrive first, then it would be somewhat inevitable. if emotions are not even present in the first place, then it would be somewhat inevitable too. strangely, it will happen when you least want it to, and it wont happen when you wished it will. which sucks. honestly, i wouldnt want it to happen, yet i dont want the inevitable to happen either. but when you realised that this is how you work, you get somewhat downtrodden, and you really wonder whether things will ever ever go your way. change is on its way, and it looks quite bad. Justin ranted at 4:35:00 pm on the |