Too much pressureand expectation has been laid upon me sometimes, especially in hall. I never expected that much work from being a publicity and publication secretary, mostly being that the past few PNP sec didnt really do much work, and they probably did the bare minimum. This time around, i am faced with a multitude of tasks, taking pictures, and getting pressured every single time. I have alot of things to do, and my whole december is a mix of training, trying to at least get a breather sometimes, and a whole lot of frustration.there was one incident that summed up a perfect frustration. I was on my way to one match, and i get a call asking where i am. Dude, i am coming. Fuck, cant you wait a while. The match isnt starting yet. Pictures need not be taken when they are warming up. and yes, i slack. i procrastinate. but i am human. if the other pnp sec of the other halls can do this, and more, then good for them. Dont fucking put that kind of expectation on me when i got my own shit to deal with. For fuck sake, they probably had much better predecessors than i had. How the hell did i know that they actually SEW their banners together to form a huge piece of cloth? When i found out, i had to go back and sew them (with my mother's help of course) and there is no appreciation. Speaking of appreciation, whenver i finish some kind of publicity, i get strange looks from the people high up. So i dont put in alot of effort huh? You dont like what you see huh? Then do it yourself dammit. You dont know nothing about design as much as i do. The worst thing is when they look for you to design something, and tell you that last minute. That incident really pissed the hell out of me. and yes, the fucking hall website. Did you know that the website is used by a different system, one that i have never used before, and is frankly really very frustrating to use? Did you know that it takes a hell long of time to do one? But no, you dont. You think its damn easy. You tell me you want this, and i tell you what i can or cannot do, but noooo, you still dont get it. If any of you actually saw this, well, tell it to my face, and not keep it to yourself and act all weird suddenly. But they are all nice people. Just expecting way too much from me. I am so pissed off right now. Justin ranted at 6:13:00 pm on the |