If somebody tries to burn youpick yourself up and wait for the world to smile with you once again. But if the world does not, then wait, and wait and wait and wait.And let the songs build out within you into a hollowed carcass that will disintegrate in the shrinking wind that bites your tongue as you speak. You wonder whether the world will smile when you smile, but it won't. Belonging is something that you dont feel very often, and the social skills that you pick up sometimes do not work, as you close yourself into your shell, and the thoughts dominate your rationality, and you are taken over by a overactive imagination, and threatened to be driven to the point of depression as nothing ever seems to be right ever again. We live the lives of people that we want to be, yet we try to be them, and we fail, and we never know why. You can hear people telling you that it is cause of this, or that, or some weakness that you have, but you never understood why. Is it because of how you speak? How you look like? The way you approach people? But why are you like that? Sometimes you can't help being like that, yet people will judge you because of that, and in that sense, you live the worse off of the unfair life that everyone suffers from. And so you dont think about it. You bury it underneath a ton of mental bricks and rocks, and hope that it will never surface. You revel in that little bit of sanity that you have, and you pretend that that is who you are, that society wants you to be like that, and you act like who you are not. And so you dont worry about it. You imagine that you are someone else, and that the world will smile with you when you smile. You tell yourself that everything will be all right once again, that you are all right. That you are okay. That you are fine. That you are all right. Justin ranted at 10:26:00 pm on the |