Brand New StartIt's been ages since I have last blogged, about anything or everything in general. And it has been so long since I last did something on the blog template, that I have almost forgotten what to do. The expandable table itself gave me a huge headache, but now that is past me, and behold a simple new design. Doesn't look very nice but I don't give a damn.At least it is a damn sight better than my previous one. So I have graduated. Convocation was alright, seeing most of them for one last time. I can't say that I have really made alot of close friends in school, but I made a few that should last me quite a while. And even fewer who have been with me through this very trying period, which I would not say. If you know, you know. If you don't, well, don't bother finding out. It ain't worth it. I have been working for more than 2 months, and I still cannot get used to the fact that I won't have any holidays anymore. Not that I do much during my holidays, but the fact remains that there is no end in side, no respite in mind, except for the occasional nap in the toliet. But work is something that you have to do, and the cash flow is nice, though with more money means that you will tend to overspend, which I did for my first month. I know where all the money went. But well, that's another story for another day. When the time is right. I have realised the power of friendship. I guess I always thought that people won't like who I am, cause I don't really like who I am. I am lazy, slack, a procrastinator, speaks much but does little and everything that people do not want. I want to change, but I only give excuses. There, another one. Excuse generator. I want to dry my eyes, and face the world with a fresh look on Life. I want to take this feeling in my stomach, and bury it deep inside me and never look back. I want to believe in a better future, and something that will reward me if I work hard. So watch me, watch me as I grow, as I change and as I prove all of you wrong. Especially you. I will prove you wrong. It's been a wonderful albeit tumultuous ride, one that if everything happens the same way, I would do it again in a heartbeat. There are some things that I would change, but if I could go into the past, I would do it again. Hopefully now with a different present. For now, it's a brand new start for me, with my baggage gone and the final act of graduation being to shift out of NTU for good. It's a brand new start, and I have no idea how to feel. I just feel numb. Justin ranted at 3:32:00 am on the |