Reflection

At certain points in time in life, you sit down and you reflect. On the past, on what has happened, on what could have been. You think about your actions, and all you can understand is how things might have been different had you done things differently. Had you not done that, would this have happened? All these questions all lead to the same answer.

That it doesn't really matter anymore. What has happened has already happened, and you can only learn from it. And this is something that I have to slowly accept, that what has happened is a accumulation of various factors, various situations and various actions. So what's the point of being vindicative? Of being jealous? Of being a dick?

There is nothing left but the future, and you reflect to think about how you should grow. Not to prove someone wrong, not to be right, but it is for yourself, for your own self-improvement. You owe yourself that much, to be the best that you can be, to fulfill your potential as much as possible.

I have learned that whatever has happened has happened for a reason. I have broken it down into various factors, but from these, I will learn. It is very hard, it is very painful sometimes, and it is hard to handle. But it will pass, the storm will pass, and you will learn. I think I have learned. I don't like what I have learned, but I will change it so that it will all be good again.

So for that, for everything and anything, I am sorry.

Justin ranted at 12:09:00 am on the
13 August 2010
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