So what now?I hear stories about how people can achieve so much in their lives, and all I can think of is how at this age, I have not achieve much. Some people might not be bothered about it, but I am frankly speaking quite bothered by it. I talk alot, and my action doesn't show that I want to do alot. Talk big and do nothing is no way to lead a life. It got me into shit, and it will get me into shit too sooner or later.We all have dreams, you, you and you. All of us with dreams will want to get it fulfill one day or another. Some might have huge dreams of wanting to find the cure for cancer (which in my opinion, we are nowhere near it), or even small dreams of getting the girl next door to smile at you and finally say hi to you. Some might want to marry a rich guy and live their lives out in peace, or some just want to bum around on the beach, chill and live their lives slacking the whole day. You know what is my dream? I want to be in a band. A real live band. One that plays music that I can play, and I want to sing. I want to compose. I want to be musically talented. You know what dreams I have? I want to be physically fit and be good at sports. What else? I want to be an excellent designer, able to draw as well as design, using both paper and mouse. Oh, and I want to be able to tell people my ideas proudly and be as good as some of the people I have seen. But how can I achieve all these dreams? Do I want too much? Do I just want all those, but I don't have the motivation nor drive to get those? Does that mean that I don't want it that much? Or is it just me, wanting to talk big and not working hard to get all that I want? What if I want to work hard, but somehow I cannot push myself? I feel that I let myself down alot at time, if not most of the times. I try to be the best, but when your best isn't good enough, it just lets you down and you just feel...numb. So what now my friends? Justin ranted at 11:22:00 pm on the |