So its the end

It's been a long time coming. Many things have been said here.

But it's the end. I will be moving to a private blog somewhere.

Goodbye folks.

Justin ranted at 12:47:00 pm on the
4 January 2011
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So I am shifting

For some reason, I am going to start shifting my blog posts to wordpress. maybe cause wordpress is more awesomeness, and blogger seems so old school.

You can visit it here: hehasnotime.wordpress.com

Justin ranted at 12:58:00 pm on the
8 November 2010
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This has got to be one of the most hilarious things. Ever

In the process of migrating my posts to tumblr (which ultimately failed), I chanced upon an old post, which I did some quiz that determined my seduction style.

So right, 4 years ago, I was this:











Now, 4 years later, I am this:











For some reason, it tickles me. Alot. haha.

But wait, is it an improvement?? Or erm...i actually deproved?

Justin ranted at 3:32:00 am on the
31 October 2010
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The slience of the night

I cannot come up with titles.

Or at least succinct ones. The ones that I come up with are grandiose, cheesy or worse, lame. But that's not the point of this post.

Every single weekend, I watch time pass by very fast. I tell myself that I have alot of things to do, that I need to do this and that, but sometimes it never gets done. I kill myself because of it, yet it still doesn't get done.

But tonight, tonight I take a walk to my past. The silence of the night helps me think back, and let me remember moments where I have laughed, smiled, frowned or cried at. The peacefulness of the house allowed me to reminisce on the memories where I treasure, wished I never had, or regret. The calm of the hour made me nostalgia of the events that made me who I am.

I am not a perfect person. I know my shortcomings, and it seems to be revealing itself more with each day. Which I fear will make people think twice about who I really am. That is my biggest shortcoming of all. The lack of confidence, the disability to believe that I can do things if I set myself out to do it, and the self esteem that shatters easily.

Sometimes, i try. I really do, but it all fall into pieces around me, and I get tired of picking it up after myself. sometimes, i dont try, and my guilt eats up at me, which makes me escape even more into my own bubble.

It's a very viscious cycle.

But I am quite proud of one thing that I have been managing to at least be somewhat consistent. I told myself that I shant be a skinny boy no more. So I set out to make myself better. And it is working. At the expense of some financial monies, but it is worth it. To know that I am doing something to make myself better, even if it is physical, the confidence is building in me. Which is nice.

3KG of muscles gained.

Please ladies and gentleman, take note that I might look 60kg (especially after gyming since I lose my fats) but I am actually 70kg.

it is quite taxing on my expenses sometimes also. But I think that if I keep it up, I can finally cross something off my to-do list in life.

Life throws you surprises sometimes. And it is up to us to take it or leave it.

For me, I take it. Always.

Justin ranted at 2:18:00 am on the

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Self Censorship Online



The video is called Would Be Love Story. And after watching it, you can't help but think of how many million times have this kind of thing happened to you. Your self censorship skills is through the roof by now for those who IM every single day. You talk to the girl/guy you are interested in, and you are dying to say something, but you afraid of the ramifications. You are afraid that if you say something, you might give the wrong impression, so you pause before you speak, you think of something witty to say, you try to say something funny, in hopes that you say the right things. And then when the other person replies, you over analyse their replies to the death.

"Shit, she took 5 minutes to just say okay. She isn't interested at all."

"Oh gawd, he just said okay. I type a whole shitload of stuff, and he just said okay????"

Something like that.

So the cycle goes on, until something that might have been, like the video, will be nothing. Cause both parties are afraid of making the wrong move, so nothing then happens. Both parties will try and play it cool, and then at the end of the day, they will just regret not saying it, but by then it's much too late.

I myself am guilty of this. Umpteen times. I forgot how many times i overanalyse everything, only to realised that i am wasting my braincells on such a inane act. You, you, you and you are probably all guilty of it (no idea who the you are, but you probably know it yourself)

So take a chance! take the risk! leap of faith and you may like what you find.

Of course, you must exercise some form of caution or restraint. Don't be like me in secondary 2, where i stupidly went to tell my crush that I love her. That was just plain stupid, dumb, desperate, loserish, whatever adjective you can think of that means idiotic, crazy and spastic at the same time.

So go get inspired. Probably alot of people did, and probably more than half of them got rejected outright. cause they think life is a fairy tale. Which isnt.

But well, that is the fun / unfun of it.

Justin ranted at 12:52:00 am on the
28 September 2010
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